six years later I heard the song live,
it sunk into my bones
and spoke of memories long forgotten.
I looked for you,
but you’ve been gone for a long long time.
I don’t expect to know the wistful wishes of the winds of time,
or the way the trees blow in the wind on the eve of a sweet summers day.
I do not expect myself to know you anymore,
because I do not, and maybe
I never really did.
All I know is this:
You did not stand with me.
You let me fall into the deep murky ashes.
You let me feel vibrant colors that soon went black,
and I ran to the next available lover,
with the next new song,
the next new promise to love me wholly and fully.
But the next person gave me a new song,
and it was not one written by the broken hearts of man,
but by the hand of the Almighty.
He has written a new song in my soul,
and it is not something you can take away,
with your false hopes and false words of happiness.
He is the rock I build my joy on.
And that is enough.
He is who I stand on,
He will never let me fall,
He will be there through it all.
He is my peace that surpasses all understanding.
To end this letter,
I forgive you."