I want to say to someone “Hey, I feel like killing myself. I don’t feel safe and I don’t want to be left alone.”
But then I feel emotionally manipulative, like I’m only using the threat of self harm to get people to do what I want.
I don’t want to upset other people.
I don’t think that makes you manipulative, i think it makes you honest. Its good to reach out, and if it were me I’d stay with you.