my past relays itself,
like one of those old time movies.
You know the ones,
hidden on cassette tape
of your most embarrassing moment.
“Oh why mom and dad,
To me its all like a movie,
all the mistakes,
all the fun,
and the love.
I need someone who can
handle this movie,
that is me,
so maybe he’ll pick it up and say,
“I love you anyway.”
This movie is part of me,
and part of the way
I lean into Jesus.
He is making all things new.
He is bringing things to light.
He is recreating me.
I have a new movie,
and its glorious,
its me and daddy standing on the sea,
laughing and learning and swimming.
Its me and daddy doing justice together,
and helping me realize I’m not the solution,
but I am part of the solution.
I receive it.”—Sometimes the past replays itself like a movie, and sometimes new movies start and bring glory - Natalie
“And when those stories weren’t enough, when the words themselves would not suffice, the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, laughed among us, wept among us, ate among us, told more stories among us, suffered among us, died among us, and rose among us. The Word entered our story and invited us into His.”—Rachel Held Evans (via yesdarlingido)
When I discuss theology or social issues with you I want it to be a conversation, a discussion. Its possible to talk about such things and have different perspectives and learn from one another. This is something God keeps teaching me. Listening is important, and when it comes to this stuff we need to listen to understand.
I move back to college tomorrow and I am going on a retreat with my hall for the weekend to talk about how we want the year to look and how we want to learn from our campus and help others know about diversity and important social justice issues. :) I am very excited but I always freak out that I may forget something. Please be praying for me as this is my first year back since the whole roommate incident. I know God is walking before me and is leading the way. Pray for complete peace tomorrow and that everything would go smoothly.
“So rend your heart, and not your garments; Return to the LORD your God, For He is gracious and merciful, Slow to anger, and of great kindness; And He relents from doing harm.”—Joel 2:13 (via grace—amazing)
Hi! I just want to let you know I totally get where you're coming from. And listen, do whatever you feel in your heart is right. You're a truly inspiring person, and you deserve to be happy above all else. I would pray about it. God will always help you through difficult situations. We love you no matter what you choose. :) God bless
Thanks, it really means a lot :) Im glad I have some support from some of my followers.
Hey Natalie, you are a daughter of the Most High! Jesus felt what you are feeling now: always there for anyone and everyone, but rarely anyone was there for Him; lonely, abandoned. I once read that why should we expect to be treated better than Jesus in this world? He is suffering with you and you with Him right now, you are not alone! I can also sympathize... Together we suffer, and together we suffer with Jesus Christ. :) Keep your eyes on the cross. How can I be praying for you? <3
Just pray for me to not be so stressed. and that people on this site wouldn’t constantly attack me.
Your Blog Is still beautiful. And You are 2. Please don't define you on how many messages you get.
Okay. and Im not. I don’t think you get it anon..I’m always answering messages, always willing to pray for people and help people out, but then when I need a friend and Im dealing with something no one cares. It is like you all disappear and honestly it sucks. So I don’t see the point anymore and Im not saying I don’t like my blog or anything, I just wish people would actually speak to me. But I guess I’m just that unlikeable so whatever..
I may take a break from tumblr, I don’t even feel like this is a safe place for me anymore or a place where I can come with my opinions, I posted something a day or two ago and get attacked for the way I said something. This website isn’t worth it. We all talk about how great it is but in all honest sometimes it isn’t. you can’t say anything unless all of tumblr agrees and its bs. I don’t even see the point anymore. I may come back and I may not. Not sure yet.
Its days like today when I remember the peace of Africa, and I think about all the problems here and I just want to cry. We need more peace in this country and in our world, and it’s attainable, we are all just greedy and hungry asking for more more and more to satiate our never ending appetites. I am just in a wreck over Ferguson. I read the kid was shot six times..is that necessary? What made any of this okay? Its just wrong and my heart and soul scream for rivers of justice to flow through this world. I know God is bringing something into fruition that we cannot even imagine, I just pray it gets here soon, and in the meantime, that we do all we can to create a just world for all, and that people know how much they are loved by their creator, and a policeman cannot take that love away with any bullet or with tear gas. I remember Africa, and I remember the peace of God, and I pray it would be here.
I could write about Uganda for months and years to tell you all that i’ve learned and experienced. I could go on and on about the presence and power of God’s Spirit that I have witnessed. Before I left for Uganda I ran across a quote someone had written on this website that said “Do you love your comfort zone more than me? - Jesus” And I learned to love Jesus more than my comfort zone. I had cold showers for 10 days, i used latrines, i witnessed the gospel alone with no one to turn too except Jesus to lead me, I ate food that was new to me. I loved every minute of it. I received healing on this trip and was filled with the Spirit and I loved every little moment of it! I loved how God brought 594 people into His Kingdom just a little over a week. I love how you could see people go from hopeless to hopeful just by hearing one name: Jesus. The people in Uganda are some of the nicest I have ever met. They truly want to know about you and where you’re from and they are willing to walk through anything with you. They are huggers and they love it. I received a Ugandan name in Uganda. Okukiliza means faith or to believe in Lugandan. I just think its such a beautiful name and I will cherish it forever. I loved the children there, they have nothing but they just show you the joy of Jesus, even if they do not know Him yet. People in Uganda are so receptive for the gospel and so hungry for Jesus. On one of my last days there our team was shaing testimonies with some Ugandan youth and I said that I have enjoyed my time in Uganda so much, an that the Spirit of God truly falls when they worship, there is just something about it that makes you want to fall on your knees and yell “Abba, here I am, I surrender all to you, make me into a servant of the gospel, I will go anywhere with you.” The Holy Spirit was just so present in our trip and taught me to just hear and listen to the voice of God, that He calls us beloved and He is with us and for us. There is nothing that can take His safety away from us. He will never run from us. He loves us so much! This trip taught me truly how blessed I am, how much I have, and how much I should give back in return to what God has planted in us. We should minister where we are called. I loved Uganda but this trip and it sounds odd continued to show me my calling for the inner cities of the US and I believe I will travel and do more trips like this one. I see the US different now and I see people differently now. I am just so blessed by all God has done on this trip. So so so so blessed. Jesus is so worth it my friends. So worth it. He will never disappoint us, not ever.
Hearing about whats going on in Saint Louis right now just breaks my heart. St. Louis and its street are holy ground for me, it was what helped me start to see what ministry really looked like and where I received my calling. I just pray that racial reconciliation can be continued to be communicated and that we can stop this brutality, it just breaks my heart. May God teach us and may we be willing to learn. Jesus, help and save us. We need you more than ever. I will be praying for STL and I pray that we can all learn to love each other as Christ loves us one day.
glad your trip went great! I have a question, can you please explain what you meant by 60 people received the spirit? thx! God bless!
Not that people received the spirit we already all have the spirit of God in is when we become saved but we just prayed for people to get the gift of tongues and that many people did. I don’t know if that makes sense or not lol
I got back this afternoon to the US from my trip to Uganda. It would take me so much time today to tell you how much I love Uganda and how I loved my time there. Jesus brought 594 people into His Kingdom, filled 60 people with the spirit and healed 11 people. Isn’t He just so amazing!! I will write another post something this week on what happened with the trip, i am just so exhausted from the long flight today and yesterday.
Disturb us, Lord, when we are too well pleased with ourselves,
when our dreams have come true because we have dreamed too little, when we arrive safely because we sailed too close to the shore.
Disturb us, Lord, when with the abundance of things we possess,
we have lost our thirst for the waters of life, having fallen in love with life, we have ceased to dream of eternity, and in our efforts to build a new earth, we have allowed our vision of the new heaven to dim.
Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly, to venture on wider seas, where storms will show your mastery, where losing sight of land, we shall find the stars. We ask you to push back the horizon of our hopes, and to push us into the future in strength, courage, hope, and love. This we ask in the name of our Captain, who is Jesus Christ.